is the most beautiful thing ever.
coates made me cry out of frustration.
he kept asking me why i didn't want to enter any of the things i'm really proud of
and i couldn't explain it to him.
some shit just isn't meant to be entered in contests.
its my soul.
but i can't just explain that to him.
because i'm inept.
and he's an asshole.
and i'm not complacent.